Amy Chen, is it fun?

         今天,我跑+走了3000米,从来不知道自己竟然有这样的毅力。

 

         看着QQ群里面每天刷过的一堆又一堆五颜六色各种字体的热闹景象，为什么我看到的是寂寞。

         高三要聚会了，我没办法回去了。

         尧和民都回国了，都叫我回去陪他们玩。

         无良再问了我一次，过年回来吗？

         WC叫我回去的时候去北京看他。

         Leo Chocolate的大制作已经完成，那个公开的秘密对我来说显得那么突然。

         “自己嗰群”班死仔每天晚上喝个烂醉然后第二天又换场继续喝，白天就肥仔肠星巴克pizzahut，你们的糜烂生活还是老样子阿，真不知道我是庆幸没回去好还是该觉得可惜。

        ……

 

        半年，世界变得太快了。我知道我自己变了，十分明显。不过自私的我，竟然在太平洋的另一边祈祷着你们，还是保留着以前的老样子，不要变得那么快。逃到了2008年的自己竟然希望你们都还活在2007，或者2005，甚至奢望你们几个停留在2002。

        Miki在Q上跟我说过的那番话，我很感动。自从高三那条信息发出去开始到现在，我一直都很责备自己为什么说出过那样的话。特别今天的自己出来了，在外面一年，更无法想象你们中的一个要是也给我发一个同样的信息，我还有没有勇气去面对一年后的你们。

 

        听到你们告诉我的一个又一个消息，是好是坏，我都很想回去听你们亲口对我讲。我还希望这个时候我在家里，一如既往放假时的手机全天无休，中午和哥去了三禾，下午和LC群们去红馆，晚上和柠檬仔去完星巴克然后接着就是和你们班死仔去金味皇……

        可是，可是。可是为什么我总是觉得半年后，回去看到的你们就已经说着一堆我听不懂的话题，身边还有几个不认识的陌生人了。我听到我在喊停，地球却依然在转，你们依然在改变，毕竟我不是Hiro，没有控制时空的能力。

 

        毛凌说，每个人心里都有一扇门，打开了，就回到了家里。

        可是，为什么家那么远，你们那么遥远。

 

        黑柴，对不起，也许我不该对你说那些话。我不应该给你压力的，我应该早一点想到，你的路也不好走……

 

        闭上双眼，地球还是在转，世界还是在变。

        我们的脚步，一刻不停。

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall

 

 

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, Ill say it clear,
Ill state my case, of which Im certain.

Ive lived a life thats full.
Ive traveled each and evry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, Ive had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried.
Ive had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!

 

 

 

 

      I just wanna do it my way.

     Is it so difficult?

     小时候不是老是说要快点长大吗？在真的来到20s的时候，怎么又欲迎还拒了。21岁，什么感觉？就好像站在电视上看过无数遍的纽约街头一样——怎么我就真的来到这里了。

     成人世界的答卷，不再只是正确答案和错误的答案。除了是非题，还有许多五花八门的题目，同样的问题没有唯一的路，走唯一的路也可能得到不同的结果。

     21岁，我们都在急速成长着。蜕变的痛楚以后是什么？它是否还是和以前一样令人期待和向往？

     I JUST wanna do it my way.

Why is it so difficult?...

 

 是不是因为世界在嫌弃我们的幼稚无知。